The Things That We Lost In The Fire

As I grow. There's a lot of things that I lost.

Most of the times, the things that I lost is myself.

I still remember the times in my childhood. When I asked about what will I be in the future.

I was five years old. I barely even know the world. Naively, I answered: "I will be a pilot."

Other kids usually say that they will become a president, an engineer or an architecht. It was a very typical answer for kids.

As I grow up, the thought of becoming a pilot has lost gradually.

I was ten years old when I watch a cartoon about a boy who strife to becme a cooking master. I was so moved by the cartoon, I started to think that I should become a cook or a chef one day.

As I grow up, the thought of becoming a chef has become obsolete.

You see, as times moves on. Our dreams, our goals, our thoughts also moving on. We change along the courses of life.

My dreams is not the only thing who change as I grow up.

My perspective also changes.

The way my parents, teachers and environment teaches me, change me of who I am. Shape me into the man I am today.

The changes is not without a sacrifice. In the process, I lost many things.

I used to think that the everyone is happy. That life is kind and merciful.

I used to think that everyone loves me. That people care about each other.

I used to think that the world is black and white. That there's only 2 kinds of people in the world, the good and the bad.

I used to think that my family, my friends, people that I love will be around me forever.

I have lost many things in the process of growing and living.

But you see, it doesn't stop me to keep on living. It doesn't stop everyone to keep on moving.

Perhaps life is cruel. So what ? There's thousands of people who have survived the cruelty of life and still be happy and keep on living without worry.

Perhaps people are bunch liars, egoistical-self righteous-hypocritical morons. So what ? That what makes us human.

Perhaps life is short, everything is meant to be broken and lost. So what ? Im not gonna give up my rights to live and to enjoy life to the fullest.

I know that as I grow up further, many things will be lost. The things that I cherised, the things that I love, the things that I care about, The things that I used to know.

But you know, My memories will treasure it all. The moments, every second of it.

The only thing I have to do is to look forward, keep walking and hope for the light at the end of the road. Because one day, when I look back. I could smile and be grateful for all the things that I have passed.